Weighting for Me

We'd experienced a fantastic week on MSC Seascape. When Rowdy asked for a cruise following graduation, I knew this was a great opportunity to check out the newest ship sailing from Galveston.  The service, food & entertainment were exceptional.  We were leaving on Sunday morning and had everything ready for self-assist debarkation. I let Rowdy & Dylan know that I was moving slow and would catch up with them. My thoughts were that they would load their luggage into the car and then could toss mine in the back and we would take off for church.  I was 20 feet from the exit with Cruise Director, Ryan Rose, in sight when my leg broke. Ryan made eye contact and could see that I was in distress. He was able to get a wheelchair for me as I could not walk at all. When I was loaded into the chair, I was escorted through the Yacht Club exit and straight to my ride with Galveston Saltwater Moms waiting for me at the cruise terminal.  That's just the beginning...

I don’t even know what to think about the past 40 days. We had a fun day at the rodeo with the family and then I took off for a few days in Dallas for work. The morning I left the rodeo cancelled the remainder of the event and from that point Coronavirus was the talk of the town...the country...the world. We received word that the kids would remain out of school for another week. Double Spring Break sounded pretty good and kids enjoyed extra days off. The date to return to school was extended until April 14th and restaurants closed. With more time at home, we decided to hire a team to cover our patio for backyard enjoyment. The first couple of weeks were busy with family game nights and long walks. The temperatures have been mild and external distractions disappeared. Hubby is working from home and I continued to go to the office. This allowed me to have connection to Co-workers during stressful times that has seen many sent home on furlough due to business closures across the coun...

The years just keep ticking away. I keep having the same discussions with myself, but have not been able to make the changes that I would like to see in my weight. Last year was full of encouragement and I truly feel that I can understand myself better than before. I've read the books, listened to the podcasts, sought out mentors and shared my experience with others. Let's see how we can move the needle on weightless this year to look and feel better in my skin. Here are some resources that have brought me joy this last year and are helping on my journey: https://www.anniefdowns.com https://jamieivey.com https://www.phit-n-phat.com These are a few of the books I loved in 2019 and a few that are on the list for 2020.

It’s been too many years with too many changes, but weight still is at the top of my list. I’ve had a year of encouragement and some great pictures that I can be proud of along the way. This year my gratitude list includes: Loving husband Healthy kids Beautiful home Reliable transportation  Amazing friends Encouraging coworkers Desire to change things that aren’t working  Weight: 243

Ready to start again. I didn't make my goals happen last year and the pictures from our amazing Disney cruise show me back at my heaviest weight. We have another vacation trip planned in 8 weeks and I challenged hubby to lose 20 lbs with me. We will be able to enjoy the theme park with more energy, enjoy the mountains with less muscle pain and enjoy the pictures without regrets over the extra weight. 228.6 lbs

It's been a while and a few pounds down, but they are making their comeback right on my stomach. I was feeling really great about where I was and even splurged on new jeans. Those are hanging in my closet with several others I no longer feel comfortable wearing. There's got to be a change and it's got to be now. We have our 15 yr high school reunion in October and... I want to be in pictures I want to be proud of who I am today I want to be happy in this body Here's to eating healthy and getting in gear. I need more energy to keep up with my kids and hubby. I don't want to sit on the sidelines watching my life happen in front of me. I want to be in the mix, in the sand, in the pool and in the pictures. Unhealthy Mollie - It's time to say goodbye.

Am I really a quitter? Today I made the choice to pay my $1 fee to drop out of the weight loss challenge at work instead of continuing to rack up $1 penalty per pound that I gained....what?!? When did I become the type of person that would quit and raise the flag of defeat instead of making good choices to get healthy and fit. I guess it was way back in 1997 when I graduated. The scale has slowly gone up and up until it topped out at a high of 235 lbs. I started putting on weight before having kids and can't blame the "baby weight" for my issues. I moved from sz 4 to sz 12 as I entered college. I was working full-time, a full-time student and active in sorority life. The recreational and school sports I'd been part of gave me more than 2 hours of excercise each day and now I was not even getting 2 hours of excercise into a week. There was the option now that I was making my own money to stop for fast food or eat out with friends as much as I wanted to. Those bad choic...

A few minutes ago I began to feel that I was still hungry following lunch. I thought about the snacks bars at my desk that are all about 200 calories, but did not feel I wanted to "spend" that much for an afternoon snack. I remembered the delicious treats from the vending machine downstairs...salami sticks. They are only 100 calories, so I'd have room for a little extra dinner. I walked to my desk took out 70 cents and I was on my way when my inner voice spoke up. "You could have a stick of sugar free gum instead." "You could save that 70 cents." "You don't need to eat even 100 calories right now." "Stop walking...you still have time to make a good choice" And you know what I did. I stopped myself from going to that vending machine and so this afternoon I will celebrate a victory. A victory over the cravings of my body and a change in the way I think about food.

Well I would say that the past two weeks have been a success. I lost 3.5 lbs week #1 and 3 lbs week #2. I've been trying to mix things up a bit with excercise and eating. Week #1 was more working out and less focused on the calorie intake. Week #2 was about counting calories while still working out 30 min per day. 1/27/12 Weight 212.0

Last week at the office we started a weight loss challenge. It will run for the next 11 weeks and I have set a personal goal of 20 lbs. Getting down to this weight would be lower than most people in Houston have ever seen me. I always think that people see me the way my high school buddies do, remembering the "Mollie" that was back in the glory days. That's not the case. When we moved to Houston in 2005 I was already up to 185 lbs. That will be my next goal, but we have to work on these 20 lbs first. Today's struggle is around craving...I am strong enough not to give in to these cravings. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 1/13/12 Weight 218.6 lbs

Well my excercise is about as frequent as my blogging these days and my eating has not been much better. I have been adding Luna bars and SmartOnes to my diet, but eating out with friends at work and grabbing a bite from a fast food joint are still out of control. I need to focus on both of these things if I want to see results. Today I weigh in at 210.8lbs

I continue to ask myself if I am ready to let go. Ready to let go of food as a friend, with friends and as a central thought during the day. At 11:30 I was amazed that I had not let the thought of food take over my morning. Usually by 9:30am I am ready to decide what I will be eating for lunch and by 3pm I am ready to know what's for dinner. I hope that these small victories will fuel my soul to see that there is a way to let go of my desires for food. Today I weigh in at 211.6

This behavior follows me where ever I go...cleaning, raising kids, having a sweet spirit, excercising and eating. I have a plan and I work the plan for a few days and before I know it I throw the plan out the window and let James Coney Island come in my car window. I spoke to friends at work about being prepared and eating some healthy snacks before leaving the office, but time got away from me and 1 1/2 hours later I am stuffing my face with who knows how many calories (they don't have nutritional info online). Today I weigh in at 211.8 lbs.

Am I really ready to make a change??? I want this time to be different. I see others around me having so much success in their weight loss journeys, but I can't seem to get myself going. I started reading Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst and watching her weekly webinar. I have the information, but at some point in time I started telling myself that this is not something I could do. Others have more time, more disipline, more drive....what do I have? More excuses and that's it. I tell my son that excuses will get him nowhere and that's exactly where they have gotten me in one year...no where closer to my goals. Today I weigh in at 213.5 lbs.