Weighting for Me

The years just keep ticking away. I keep having the same discussions with myself, but have not been able to make the changes that I would like to see in my weight. Last year was full of encouragement and I truly feel that I can understand myself better than before. I've read the books, listened to the podcasts, sought out mentors and shared my experience with others. Let's see how we can move the needle on weightless this year to look and feel better in my skin. Here are some resources that have brought me joy this last year and are helping on my journey: https://www.anniefdowns.com https://jamieivey.com https://www.phit-n-phat.com These are a few of the books I loved in 2019 and a few that are on the list for 2020.

Am I really a quitter? Today I made the choice to pay my $1 fee to drop out of the weight loss challenge at work instead of continuing to rack up $1 penalty per pound that I gained....what?!? When did I become the type of person that would quit and raise the flag of defeat instead of making good choices to get healthy and fit. I guess it was way back in 1997 when I graduated. The scale has slowly gone up and up until it topped out at a high of 235 lbs. I started putting on weight before having kids and can't blame the "baby weight" for my issues. I moved from sz 4 to sz 12 as I entered college. I was working full-time, a full-time student and active in sorority life. The recreational and school sports I'd been part of gave me more than 2 hours of excercise each day and now I was not even getting 2 hours of excercise into a week. There was the option now that I was making my own money to stop for fast food or eat out with friends as much as I wanted to. Those bad choic...

A few minutes ago I began to feel that I was still hungry following lunch. I thought about the snacks bars at my desk that are all about 200 calories, but did not feel I wanted to "spend" that much for an afternoon snack. I remembered the delicious treats from the vending machine downstairs...salami sticks. They are only 100 calories, so I'd have room for a little extra dinner. I walked to my desk took out 70 cents and I was on my way when my inner voice spoke up. "You could have a stick of sugar free gum instead." "You could save that 70 cents." "You don't need to eat even 100 calories right now." "Stop walking...you still have time to make a good choice" And you know what I did. I stopped myself from going to that vending machine and so this afternoon I will celebrate a victory. A victory over the cravings of my body and a change in the way I think about food.

Last week at the office we started a weight loss challenge. It will run for the next 11 weeks and I have set a personal goal of 20 lbs. Getting down to this weight would be lower than most people in Houston have ever seen me. I always think that people see me the way my high school buddies do, remembering the "Mollie" that was back in the glory days. That's not the case. When we moved to Houston in 2005 I was already up to 185 lbs. That will be my next goal, but we have to work on these 20 lbs first. Today's struggle is around craving...I am strong enough not to give in to these cravings. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 1/13/12 Weight 218.6 lbs