Weighting for Me

It's been a while and a few pounds down, but they are making their comeback right on my stomach. I was feeling really great about where I was and even splurged on new jeans. Those are hanging in my closet with several others I no longer feel comfortable wearing. There's got to be a change and it's got to be now. We have our 15 yr high school reunion in October and... I want to be in pictures I want to be proud of who I am today I want to be happy in this body Here's to eating healthy and getting in gear. I need more energy to keep up with my kids and hubby. I don't want to sit on the sidelines watching my life happen in front of me. I want to be in the mix, in the sand, in the pool and in the pictures. Unhealthy Mollie - It's time to say goodbye.

Am I really a quitter? Today I made the choice to pay my $1 fee to drop out of the weight loss challenge at work instead of continuing to rack up $1 penalty per pound that I gained....what?!? When did I become the type of person that would quit and raise the flag of defeat instead of making good choices to get healthy and fit. I guess it was way back in 1997 when I graduated. The scale has slowly gone up and up until it topped out at a high of 235 lbs. I started putting on weight before having kids and can't blame the "baby weight" for my issues. I moved from sz 4 to sz 12 as I entered college. I was working full-time, a full-time student and active in sorority life. The recreational and school sports I'd been part of gave me more than 2 hours of excercise each day and now I was not even getting 2 hours of excercise into a week. There was the option now that I was making my own money to stop for fast food or eat out with friends as much as I wanted to. Those bad choic...

A few minutes ago I began to feel that I was still hungry following lunch. I thought about the snacks bars at my desk that are all about 200 calories, but did not feel I wanted to "spend" that much for an afternoon snack. I remembered the delicious treats from the vending machine downstairs...salami sticks. They are only 100 calories, so I'd have room for a little extra dinner. I walked to my desk took out 70 cents and I was on my way when my inner voice spoke up. "You could have a stick of sugar free gum instead." "You could save that 70 cents." "You don't need to eat even 100 calories right now." "Stop walking...you still have time to make a good choice" And you know what I did. I stopped myself from going to that vending machine and so this afternoon I will celebrate a victory. A victory over the cravings of my body and a change in the way I think about food.

Well I would say that the past two weeks have been a success. I lost 3.5 lbs week #1 and 3 lbs week #2. I've been trying to mix things up a bit with excercise and eating. Week #1 was more working out and less focused on the calorie intake. Week #2 was about counting calories while still working out 30 min per day. 1/27/12 Weight 212.0

Last week at the office we started a weight loss challenge. It will run for the next 11 weeks and I have set a personal goal of 20 lbs. Getting down to this weight would be lower than most people in Houston have ever seen me. I always think that people see me the way my high school buddies do, remembering the "Mollie" that was back in the glory days. That's not the case. When we moved to Houston in 2005 I was already up to 185 lbs. That will be my next goal, but we have to work on these 20 lbs first. Today's struggle is around craving...I am strong enough not to give in to these cravings. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 1/13/12 Weight 218.6 lbs