Weighting for Me

Am I really a quitter? Today I made the choice to pay my $1 fee to drop out of the weight loss challenge at work instead of continuing to rack up $1 penalty per pound that I gained....what?!? When did I become the type of person that would quit and raise the flag of defeat instead of making good choices to get healthy and fit. I guess it was way back in 1997 when I graduated. The scale has slowly gone up and up until it topped out at a high of 235 lbs. I started putting on weight before having kids and can't blame the "baby weight" for my issues. I moved from sz 4 to sz 12 as I entered college. I was working full-time, a full-time student and active in sorority life. The recreational and school sports I'd been part of gave me more than 2 hours of excercise each day and now I was not even getting 2 hours of excercise into a week. There was the option now that I was making my own money to stop for fast food or eat out with friends as much as I wanted to. Those bad choic...

A few minutes ago I began to feel that I was still hungry following lunch. I thought about the snacks bars at my desk that are all about 200 calories, but did not feel I wanted to "spend" that much for an afternoon snack. I remembered the delicious treats from the vending machine downstairs...salami sticks. They are only 100 calories, so I'd have room for a little extra dinner. I walked to my desk took out 70 cents and I was on my way when my inner voice spoke up. "You could have a stick of sugar free gum instead." "You could save that 70 cents." "You don't need to eat even 100 calories right now." "Stop walking...you still have time to make a good choice" And you know what I did. I stopped myself from going to that vending machine and so this afternoon I will celebrate a victory. A victory over the cravings of my body and a change in the way I think about food.