Weighting for Me

Well I would say that the past two weeks have been a success. I lost 3.5 lbs week #1 and 3 lbs week #2. I've been trying to mix things up a bit with excercise and eating. Week #1 was more working out and less focused on the calorie intake. Week #2 was about counting calories while still working out 30 min per day. 1/27/12 Weight 212.0

Last week at the office we started a weight loss challenge. It will run for the next 11 weeks and I have set a personal goal of 20 lbs. Getting down to this weight would be lower than most people in Houston have ever seen me. I always think that people see me the way my high school buddies do, remembering the "Mollie" that was back in the glory days. That's not the case. When we moved to Houston in 2005 I was already up to 185 lbs. That will be my next goal, but we have to work on these 20 lbs first. Today's struggle is around craving...I am strong enough not to give in to these cravings. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 1/13/12 Weight 218.6 lbs

Well my excercise is about as frequent as my blogging these days and my eating has not been much better. I have been adding Luna bars and SmartOnes to my diet, but eating out with friends at work and grabbing a bite from a fast food joint are still out of control. I need to focus on both of these things if I want to see results. Today I weigh in at 210.8lbs

I continue to ask myself if I am ready to let go. Ready to let go of food as a friend, with friends and as a central thought during the day. At 11:30 I was amazed that I had not let the thought of food take over my morning. Usually by 9:30am I am ready to decide what I will be eating for lunch and by 3pm I am ready to know what's for dinner. I hope that these small victories will fuel my soul to see that there is a way to let go of my desires for food. Today I weigh in at 211.6

This behavior follows me where ever I go...cleaning, raising kids, having a sweet spirit, excercising and eating. I have a plan and I work the plan for a few days and before I know it I throw the plan out the window and let James Coney Island come in my car window. I spoke to friends at work about being prepared and eating some healthy snacks before leaving the office, but time got away from me and 1 1/2 hours later I am stuffing my face with who knows how many calories (they don't have nutritional info online). Today I weigh in at 211.8 lbs.

Am I really ready to make a change??? I want this time to be different. I see others around me having so much success in their weight loss journeys, but I can't seem to get myself going. I started reading Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst and watching her weekly webinar. I have the information, but at some point in time I started telling myself that this is not something I could do. Others have more time, more disipline, more drive....what do I have? More excuses and that's it. I tell my son that excuses will get him nowhere and that's exactly where they have gotten me in one year...no where closer to my goals. Today I weigh in at 213.5 lbs.