Weighting for Me

I continue to ask myself if I am ready to let go. Ready to let go of food as a friend, with friends and as a central thought during the day. At 11:30 I was amazed that I had not let the thought of food take over my morning. Usually by 9:30am I am ready to decide what I will be eating for lunch and by 3pm I am ready to know what's for dinner. I hope that these small victories will fuel my soul to see that there is a way to let go of my desires for food. Today I weigh in at 211.6

This behavior follows me where ever I go...cleaning, raising kids, having a sweet spirit, excercising and eating. I have a plan and I work the plan for a few days and before I know it I throw the plan out the window and let James Coney Island come in my car window. I spoke to friends at work about being prepared and eating some healthy snacks before leaving the office, but time got away from me and 1 1/2 hours later I am stuffing my face with who knows how many calories (they don't have nutritional info online). Today I weigh in at 211.8 lbs.

Am I really ready to make a change??? I want this time to be different. I see others around me having so much success in their weight loss journeys, but I can't seem to get myself going. I started reading Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst and watching her weekly webinar. I have the information, but at some point in time I started telling myself that this is not something I could do. Others have more time, more disipline, more drive....what do I have? More excuses and that's it. I tell my son that excuses will get him nowhere and that's exactly where they have gotten me in one year...no where closer to my goals. Today I weigh in at 213.5 lbs.